Starved For A Little Tenderness

In this empty room

Silence resonates back and forth

Giving a gray night

In the Graveyard competition

A werewolf, female edition,

Waking up in me

So sinister, it is eerie;

The germ of fear...

So familiar!

Another cold night behind closed doors

Is like a gloomy day from hell

When suppressed, almost dead,

Desire soars,

Complete with angry thunderstorm

Oh, well...

Atop the dark tide...
I ride in a self loathe

I embrace it,

The numbness! The Darkness!

A malignant ache;

Eats away at the core of my need

I can't take it anymore, I can't take...

Tearing painfully at my craving soul

Reaching out; there is an emptiness, and a howl...

So I huddle together with the pillows

Wrist watches

Sound like the obsequious gong

Turning and tossing

Only it's not the lack of sleep as much,

As it is yearning to belong!

I look longingly at intimacy

As it eludes me

Recklessly letting off passion like a newly deflowered teenager

I find no relief, or assuager

Love always leaves;

Leaving me holding onto

Our tomorrow!

Who wants to take away

My itchy sorrow?

A gnawing sense of loneliness

Reaches out its sticky tentacles into my space

Snuggling in my would-have-been haven...

The voice of a night raven...

It sucks out all the air

I'm gasping for a lifeline

In asthmatic despair

A single dry rose to remember…

I'm all alone.

I draw so little comfort

From hope

When my heart

Keeps falling apart

into little breathing pieces

This is...

I feel like I'm working against Cupid!

This boy with the wings is cruel

And stupid!

This vulnerability is exhausting

I'm losing grip on my hormones

Funny, how;

Their overtones

Suggest some sinful thought...

A stranger with a smile lights my world

Only he is not smiling at me!

Come to me, stranger, let it be!

Like déjà vu

From a distant memory

I remember vaguely floating on pheromones…

Visualizing, through tears, sexy wickedness

Urgh!

Somebody, take my heat away!

I’m starved for a little tenderness.

© AK May 2013 

Your smile -

It messes me up.

It comforts like a breeze

After all this time,

It still is

As bright as a sunny day!

Like a ghost

Of love lost

It taunts my need!

Stopping my heart,

Awakening the embers...

Warming up my year of

Twelve Decembers...

I saw it!

On our first date;

Basked in it!

Bathed in it!

Blanketed in it

My heart fluttered,

My stomach knotted,

Like a teen with a major crash

And you kept smiling...

I kept drinking

This sweet poisonous “smash”

Making me tipsy

Making me blush

(Yeah, ebony women do blush!)

Your smile....

Drawing me into your charming heart!

Impregnating me with the idea

Of our smiling child

I wanted to reside

In the warmth of that heart;

To always call it home:

Somewhere I knew
Love was born

And always would be.

I still do!

Against my better judgment -

Sucked in Melancholy

Up to the chin,

I hallucinate about:

'What-could-have-been'

I said it all; as I felt it

Bore my soul because it felt right!

Oh, and the night...

I regaled you of my uncanny musings in those intimate dreams;

I let you savor the spice from my either lips,

I intertwined you in the sweetness of my hips

Spoke of the feelings

Which you could read

Just by looking into my eyes

Which were nothing, but Love beams

I caught every nuance of my inner happiness

In countless explicit poems -

Mixed with good ole' “sappy-ness”

If I could sing,

I would have put it in a song!

I told you my fears -

Except the fear I held dear:

That of losing you!

The fear

I didn't want to breathe life into

By voicing it!

  

I was a willing captive:

Gave you my heart;

Because there was no greater gift!

I flew, I sublimed,

I didn't care if it was out of line

I had your smile for breakfast

And lunch, and dinner...

I hoped to God my wantonness

Didn't scare you away!

But it did.

You gave up!

Abandoned our little wonderland -

And left me trapped in the dark!

I lost my way in the maze -

Trying to get to you!

Burnt by the blaze

Inside me

But it didn't show me ways...

Even with time gone by

I can't pretend I don't care, don't cry;

When I realize you don't think of me!

The frustration of not finding you

Is killing me!

 You look at me;

You see 'lonely'

Because I see it when you brood!

I feel claustrophobic:
My thoughts, my longing for you

Dance mad aerobics

Like someone pulled me out of the luxurious Limo

And threw me into the cramped space

Of an abandoned casino

There is nothing noble enough -

To justify plaguing my heart thus!

You don't care!

The answer was always right under my nose!

Go figure! Yet I dared...

You say, you just “wanna be friends” -

(We never were friends!)

Yet you keep taunting me

With that smile...

I see it even in a coffee cup...

... It still messes me up!

© AK Nov. 2012

*My muse

You live to mess with me
And that you like it -
Makes me want you more!
You are cute-
When you taunt me!
I need a shrink!

© AK Nov 2012

Tres Erotica

A spasm of unbridled lust

Courses down my spine

And I know I want you, hard!

Like a woman possessed;

I got plenty of shame

But no self -will!

I want us to be one

I want to feel

This pulsating thrill

Inside me

My toes curl,

And I break into a sweat

So profuse, I'm embarrassed

And joyfully wet...

Breathing heavily...

My heart pounds in my throat

Making my mouth dry like desert soil

While my other lips get wet,

Exuding bewitching oil

I fight so hard

Against the urge to run my tongue

Across my voracious lips

The thought of pushing your head between

My-waiting-for-euphoria-hips

Is so intense!

Oh the effort!

I'm surprised

I'm not a heap of nerves on my feet!

I watch your sinewy muscles ripple...

And so does my body,

From the tips of my toes

To the nipples..

Before the night is out:

And before the sky turns into the light blue

I wanna do so many bad things...

With you!

 © AK 2013

Valentine wish!

Last year, on this day,
I gave him my most precious possession:
My heart!
Because he merited it!

A new year is here...
I would do it again-
Give him that same heart
But he still has it - Supposedly!

Either he doesn't want it-
Or it got lost in the mail
Or he still hasn't peeked inside it:
My most pure possession!

I keep hoping he'd receive it:
My heart!
It's tired of hanging in balance
The endless torture...

He got his reasons
And I don't understand them!
But whatever my aches
Or however lonely I get..

He is in my heart
I wish he could look at me
With the stars in his eyes
The same way I gaze at him!

(C) AK 7th Feb 2013

Light-headed With Want!

The smile comes easy
The spontaneous laugh;
So genuine it lingers
Embracing me in it's warmth

I'm addicted
To this feel-good freshness
Floating endlessly in the splendour
Of your effortless charm!

Life bubbles out of you
Without a catch!
You are the epitome
Of all things heady!

I'm lightheaded with want!!
But then again:
How can I lounge in your lavish heart:
And not be moved by you?!

You calm my storms
And give me wings:
Riding high on subtle nuances of joy
I'm floating on your pheromones

In a way,
My heart is waking up!
Being with you gets me worked up
I can feel myself being swept away...

After a long time
Of endless ache
I'm like a bud
Waiting to sprout into light

When I finally arrive,
I want it to be with you:
Gazing at you
With stars in my eyes!

(C) AK 4th Feb 2013