Your smile -

It messes me up.

It comforts like a breeze

After all this time,

It still is

As bright as a sunny day!

Like a ghost

Of love lost

It taunts my need!

Stopping my heart,

Awakening the embers...

Warming up my year of

Twelve Decembers...

I saw it!

On our first date;

Basked in it!

Bathed in it!

Blanketed in it

My heart fluttered,

My stomach knotted,

Like a teen with a major crash

And you kept smiling...

I kept drinking

This sweet poisonous “smash”

Making me tipsy

Making me blush

(Yeah, ebony women do blush!)

Your smile....

Drawing me into your charming heart!

Impregnating me with the idea

Of our smiling child

I wanted to reside

In the warmth of that heart;

To always call it home:

Somewhere I knew
Love was born

And always would be.

I still do!

Against my better judgment -

Sucked in Melancholy

Up to the chin,

I hallucinate about:

'What-could-have-been'

I said it all; as I felt it

Bore my soul because it felt right!

Oh, and the night...

I regaled you of my uncanny musings in those intimate dreams;

I let you savor the spice from my either lips,

I intertwined you in the sweetness of my hips

Spoke of the feelings

Which you could read

Just by looking into my eyes

Which were nothing, but Love beams

I caught every nuance of my inner happiness

In countless explicit poems -

Mixed with good ole' “sappy-ness”

If I could sing,

I would have put it in a song!

I told you my fears -

Except the fear I held dear:

That of losing you!

The fear

I didn't want to breathe life into

By voicing it!

  

I was a willing captive:

Gave you my heart;

Because there was no greater gift!

I flew, I sublimed,

I didn't care if it was out of line

I had your smile for breakfast

And lunch, and dinner...

I hoped to God my wantonness

Didn't scare you away!

But it did.

You gave up!

Abandoned our little wonderland -

And left me trapped in the dark!

I lost my way in the maze -

Trying to get to you!

Burnt by the blaze

Inside me

But it didn't show me ways...

Even with time gone by

I can't pretend I don't care, don't cry;

When I realize you don't think of me!

The frustration of not finding you

Is killing me!

 You look at me;

You see 'lonely'

Because I see it when you brood!

I feel claustrophobic:
My thoughts, my longing for you

Dance mad aerobics

Like someone pulled me out of the luxurious Limo

And threw me into the cramped space

Of an abandoned casino

There is nothing noble enough -

To justify plaguing my heart thus!

You don't care!

The answer was always right under my nose!

Go figure! Yet I dared...

You say, you just “wanna be friends” -

(We never were friends!)

Yet you keep taunting me

With that smile...

I see it even in a coffee cup...

... It still messes me up!

© AK Nov. 2012

*My muse

You live to mess with me
And that you like it -
Makes me want you more!
You are cute-
When you taunt me!
I need a shrink!

© AK Nov 2012

Tres Erotica

A spasm of unbridled lust

Courses down my spine

And I know I want you, hard!

Like a woman possessed;

I got plenty of shame

But no self -will!

I want us to be one

I want to feel

This pulsating thrill

Inside me

My toes curl,

And I break into a sweat

So profuse, I'm embarrassed

And joyfully wet...

Breathing heavily...

My heart pounds in my throat

Making my mouth dry like desert soil

While my other lips get wet,

Exuding bewitching oil

I fight so hard

Against the urge to run my tongue

Across my voracious lips

The thought of pushing your head between

My-waiting-for-euphoria-hips

Is so intense!

Oh the effort!

I'm surprised

I'm not a heap of nerves on my feet!

I watch your sinewy muscles ripple...

And so does my body,

From the tips of my toes

To the nipples..

Before the night is out:

And before the sky turns into the light blue

I wanna do so many bad things...

With you!

 © AK 2013

Valentine wish!

Last year, on this day,
I gave him my most precious possession:
My heart!
Because he merited it!

A new year is here...
I would do it again-
Give him that same heart
But he still has it - Supposedly!

Either he doesn't want it-
Or it got lost in the mail
Or he still hasn't peeked inside it:
My most pure possession!

I keep hoping he'd receive it:
My heart!
It's tired of hanging in balance
The endless torture...

He got his reasons
And I don't understand them!
But whatever my aches
Or however lonely I get..

He is in my heart
I wish he could look at me
With the stars in his eyes
The same way I gaze at him!

(C) AK 7th Feb 2013

Light-headed With Want!

The smile comes easy
The spontaneous laugh;
So genuine it lingers
Embracing me in it's warmth

I'm addicted
To this feel-good freshness
Floating endlessly in the splendour
Of your effortless charm!

Life bubbles out of you
Without a catch!
You are the epitome
Of all things heady!

I'm lightheaded with want!!
But then again:
How can I lounge in your lavish heart:
And not be moved by you?!

You calm my storms
And give me wings:
Riding high on subtle nuances of joy
I'm floating on your pheromones

In a way,
My heart is waking up!
Being with you gets me worked up
I can feel myself being swept away...

After a long time
Of endless ache
I'm like a bud
Waiting to sprout into light

When I finally arrive,
I want it to be with you:
Gazing at you
With stars in my eyes!

(C) AK 4th Feb 2013

I'll soon wake up...

Hook line and sinker...
Here goes my little fairytale:
Loving you from a distance -
I'm a woman possessed!
THE END!

The longer version:
I end things between us,
In my head;
With a hope of giving my laden soul respite
Creating climatic (or anti-climatic) scenarios that would win Oscars!
But you keep dangling the carrot-
Something you know I want the most: You!
I only have to see you
And a tempest of emotions breaks forth:
I fall anew!

You never know ‘lonely’
Until your heart's imprisoned!
I should know!
You threw away keys to my freedom
I am incarcerated by my need


I need my best friend
Who believed I could scale heights;
My partner-
Who always said:
We are in this together!
I want my elated heart
That felt weightless in your heart:
My antidote -
For all those uncanny cravings!
I need a lifeline

Because...


I'm love with a dream!
Lost in glorious musings of a happiness so boundless...
But Gloom hovers like an angel of death
The reality:
I'll soon wake up!

© AK Nov 2012

Behind the toothy smile...

Lies a loneliness
So intense:
I can hear it breathe
Painfully...

Why did you have
To love a one like me -
Only to leave such pain
That seared the heart until it is dark?

 When you look at me
I got no rational thought!
It is terrifying-
The power you have over me!

You keep coming onto me
At the same time choosing we are wrong
Loading the broken pieces of my soul
Only to let them slip

I'm shattered
I look like a tsunami wreckage!
The damage I hold within
Is causing quite the stink!

How can I feel this emptiness,
When I epitomize fullness of life?
Look closely; you just might see it -
The sadness that subtly lurks behind the smile

This Love:
It's more killing than hate
Hate is plain simple en clean...
But Cupid: he creates quite the mess!

 © AK November
 

*In the Silence of the night...

You creep up to me

Caressing me like the midnight moon

Taunting my loins...

Until I feel a malignant lymph node

Taking your effortless charm

You chop at my resilience

Exposing a smoldering yearning

That has me in a blood thirsty grip

My brain is short of air

I'm chocking on the frustration...

Oh sweet torture!

*Gasp*

A swift moan escapes

Before I can stop it!

I'm writhing and spasming

In embarrassing ecstasy!   

You find your way

Into thoughts I don’t let anyone in

You occupy my mind

In a really familiar way …

Your burning touch traces my need

Awakening me from the dream

Oy!

I’m desperate to connect!

© AK November 2012

Re-writing My Fantasy

Maybe in another lifetime…

We could have been painted by Da Vinci (*laugh*)

For, DAMN, we were good together:

Had the kind of bizarre happy

That would make ‘The Notebook’

Pale in soppy relevance!

But I’ve learnt the hard way…

Even the picturesque Mona Lisa

Doesn't smile

Go figure!

We spoke in code

Our secret language…

We were that tied at the hip together

But even the firmest of ropes

Gives in to pressure

‘If I give you love…’

Funny how it became our song

When we are no longer together

I didn’t hear much of it then (wink)

But now I can hear it from miles

As it drags with it nostalgia that makes me blush

You haunt me

And I have no power to fight you…

Don’t think I really want to

It is a constantly exhausting losing battle

So I’m re-writing my fantasy

It will make Cinderella story

Pale in comparison

Because in this my tale,

I will mould my fate:

I will shape it artistically,

To fit the core of each crevasse in my soul

I’ll fill each void

That continues to be cut off air

Every time I see you!

I’ll tether my heart

Barring it from roving

Lest it catches feelings!

I'll structure this fantasy

On the blueprint of ma needs!

© October 2012

INDIAN DELIGHTS!

Tickle Your Spice Taste Buds

By Angela Kateemu

RECIPE: Chicken Chetinnad served with Cheese Naan

CHEF: Rana

PLACE: Khyber Pass Indian Authentic Restaurant @ Speke Hotel

There is something about spiced food that grows on you and gets you craving when you take long without tasting it. Indian delicacies are colourful and rich in spices. They could be the much needed break to your monotonous menu.  Chef Rana gives you a simple recipe to follow, to make these dishes in the comfort of your home.

Chicken Chetinnad

This chicken dish is thick; it almost is a full meal on its own.

You can serve it with Naan or vegetable rice

Ingredients

To make Chicken Tikka

* Boneless chicken

* Fenugreek

* Turmeric powder

* Ginger Garlic paste

* Salt

Method

* Clean the chicken, remove the skin and cut into small pieces

* In a bowl, mix the above spices (Fenugreek, Turmeric, Ginger Garlic paste) with chicken. Add salt to taste.

* Leave them to stand for about 15-20 to let the spices sink in the chicken

* Shove the marinated chicken on skewers and place in a hot Tandoori/oven

* After 10-15 minutes, take the Chicken Tikka out of the Tandoori

Making Chicken Chetinnad

Ingredients

* Half-done chicken Tikka

* Vegetable Oil

* Curry leaves

* Mustard seed

* Chopped garlic

* Chopped fresh chilli

* Chopped onions and tomatoes

* Salt

* Coriander powder

* Coconut powder

* Water

* Mutton gravy – (onion and tomato gravy for non-vegetarian dishes)

* Fresh coriander leaves (Garnish)

Method

* Heat a little oil on a pan

* Add the mustard seeds and let them cook before adding curry leaves

* Add chopped garlic followed by Chopped chill, onions and tomatoes. Stir until it cooks.

* Add salt to taste

* Put coconut powder followed by the half done chicken Tikka

* Stir everything together before adding water.

* Add yoghurt and cashew nut paste to taste!

* Finally add mutton gravy to make the sauce thick.

* Stir and leave on fire for a few minutes

* When it is ready, add chopped fresh coriander leaves.

* Serve on a flat tower and garnish with fresh tomatoes, fresh coriander leaves, coconut powder.

* Accompany this dish with Cheese Naan

Cheese Naan

Ingredients

* Baking flour

* Milk

* Water

* Eggs

* Sugar

* Salt

* Baking oil

* Grated Cottage cheese

Method

* In a bowl, pour flour, milk, eggs, a little salt (to taste), sugar, and water

* Mix everything together to make dough

* Add a little oil to make the dough supple

* When the dough is well mixed; divide in to make small balls of dough

* Let the dough balls rest for about 15 minutes

* Take a ball of dough at a time and flatten them

* Roll grated cheese and stuff into the dough

* Enclose the cheese with in the dough, roll into a ball

* Then flatten it with hands and stick it on the walls of a hot Tandoori

* Remove the ready Naan after 2 minutes

* Spread a little butter on the top side and cut into servable portions

* Serve hot

Cheese Naan

Chef Rana stuffs cheese into the dough to make Cheese Naan

Chicken Chetinnad served on a flat tower

Chicken Chetinnad

Some of the ingredients used to make Chicken Chetinnad

CONTINENTAL

Ostentatious Mouth Watering Dishes!

By Angela Kateemu

RECIPE: Seafood Platter, Chef Salad!

CHEF: Haidar

PLACE: Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo

There is nothing that works a big appetite like eating in an ostentatious lakeside resort with a 5-star chef! I had the pleasure, not only of dining, but also of joining Chef Haidar as he prepared mouth watering, less intricate, Continental dishes.

SEAFOOD PLATTER

(Serve with Mashed potatoes and Dill Caper Sauce)

Many people make faces at the thought of Seafood. Trust me; you will find them rather tasty, they’ll grow on you. Breakaway from your monotonous Fish Stew and explore a wave of other aquatic goodies!

Ingredients

* Nile Perch

* Salmon

* Squids

* Prawns

Marinade

* Black pepper

* Fresh Parsley

* Garlic, chopped

* Lime juice

* Salt

Preparation

* Marinate the different Seafoods with black pepper powder, chopped parsley, garlic, and lime juice

* Add a little salt to taste  and leave the marinade to soak in the different Seafoods for about an hour

* Spread a little oil on the flat hot grill

* Take the marinated pieces to the grill

* Grill each side for around 2 minutes until the pieces turn brown

* Take off the grill, when ready

Making Mashed Potatoes

* Boil the Irish potatoes in water and salt, until ready

* Mash the ready Irish Potatoes

* Put a little butter on a pan, over fire

* Add the mashed potatoes and mix

* Take off the fire

Making Dill Caper Sauce

Dill herbs go well with all types of Seafood

* Heat Cream in a pan

* Add fresh Dill herbs to cream

* Add Caper seeds (available in supermarkets) and stir

Serving

* Arrange the Grilled seafood around a serving of mashed potatoes

* Spread with Dill Caper Sauce

* Garnish with steamed, buttered Broccoli, Cauliflower and carrots

* Finish with Balcamic (Dark brown liquid)

CHEF SALAD

Ingredients

* Canned Tuna fish

* Mixed Veggies (Broccoli, Lettuce, Tomatoes

* Lemon

* Cous Cous (Moroccan Traditional Dish -available in Supermarkets)

* Dressing (mix Vinegar, English Mustard and olive oil)

Making Cous Cous

* Steam Cous Cous in Chicken Stock for five minutes

* Add chopped bell peppers (green, yellow, red)

* Let it cool (because you are going to use it as a salad!)

Chef Haidar of Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo grills the sea food

Grill the pieces until they brown

Marinated Seafood ready to be grilled

Marinated Seafood ready to be grilled

Chef Haidar of Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo makes his special salad

Chef Salad with Cous Cous 

Ingredients for the salad

Preparation of Chef Salad

* Mix the veggies together with Tuna and a little dressing

* On a platter, put a serving of Cous Cous

* Surround it with the Mixed Salad

* Garnish with fresh coriander and sprinkle a little Mango Coulie (Yellow)

This is me, letting go!

I saw you yesterday,
And all those things

I fell in love with
Came rushing at me -
With a force so hard,

The air in my lungs

Didn't stand a chance!

My stomach was hit

With an invisible dart,
Making me weak,
My chest palpitated;
My heart broke into a song
Of desire,
Of raw unfulfilled want...

Stop! This unbearable heat...

My heart plays Moonlight Sonata

In rush dirty rapper's beat


Your smile played before my eyes
The same warm smile

That had my stomach in a knot

On our first date!
It tortured my need

Made me want

The child from your seed…
When you looked gently at me

Behind your thin-rimmed glasses;

Reminding of nightly prayers

And yoga classes...

The anger,
Seemed to dissipate
I broke into a sweat
Breaking eye contact

Before I could jump

Your bones
The familiar mischief in your laugh;

Your voice with sweet overtones
It was like homecoming!

My voice went yodeling
I pretended not to feel

The things you made me feel
I wanted so bad to break my vow
And ravish you without a shame!

And then, perhaps later,

Dive into self-blame...

While my guards were silently

Falling down,

Causing old dust of hope to fly like Sahara simoom
I raised again my eyes up at you:
My heart almost stopped!
My nearness tortured you,
Just as much as you did me!
I watched you avoid eye-contact

I see...
Afraid it would mirror my lust?
Trying so hard

Not to relive the familiarity

That we'll forever share!
And as I watched you look away,

I swear
I could sense I was alive

In your mind, in your heart...

And as I stared
Your groin took on  a life of its own

Ahha!!! I see your self-control

Is blown away with my moves...

I am still your Muse!

The familiar tang of your body scent wafted to me,

Awakening all the senses...

Queuing them up until they were guitar-string taut!

A bead of sweat formed on my brow 

With every rise of my chest!

I felt Claustrophobia slowly creeping up on me-

My breathing came out in laboured shafts!

My heart, hammered against the rib cage,

Threatening to burst forth!

I felt your every shift,
Responded to your every nervous twinge

It hit me back, my silly “revenge”:
I shifted endlessly,
Because against my willpower;
A hot flush I hopelessly fought

Was spreading all over me,

Like in menopause,
Awakening in me a raw want;
Only you could bring into life!
It rose like a tumor, so malignant yet subtle
My body twitched, raked by sweet spasms…

Those silent spasms, that strive

But unable to hold

Imminent, loud orgasms...

I looked over at you
Hoping you

Wouldn't see my discomfort
You didn't miss the goosebumps
They kissed my skin
With an obsession of an amorous lover…
It made you antsy!
The tension of our closeness was so thick,
I could cut through it!
I held ground
I couldn't trust my legs,
To bolt me out of the room!
Not sure what to do with these feelings
That were continuously pouring off of me,

Zooming past my thighs…

My throat, dry,
My mouth aching to be devoured

Damn!

 I did wet my lips with my tongue!

My wound has been scoured...

I looked on you –
Trying hard not to stare as you casually paced the room,
Convincingly looking like you were calm!
Inquiring about nothing I'd said!
With my short skirt riding high
You couldn't concentrate

I understood!
Against myself: I understood!
Forgave you
For giving up on us-
The wreckage you inflicted

On my heart!
It was the same deal of heartache
You carried, stoically
Watching you as you looked upon me;
Almost crushing under the resolve to keep buried
The overwhelming love you have for me.
In accepting the reality of the walls between us;
I need a new fantasy...
NOT with you!
I'm chucking my deuces:

I'm letting YOU go

© AK 2013 

Lonely is A Beat-CH!

I stare at blank hope

Reminiscing about times gone...

When every minute was dope

My soul's restless

Hoping to wake up-

Only it has been sleepless!

Cold nights are calling

Reaching out with their chilling touch

I recoil and keep falling

Rescue me I beg

For I fear the dark

Bottled I am, in a keg

Away from the light

I suffocate

Praying for a life that is lite

Exit my mind knave

For my body aches

Buoying up only to cave

Oh Cupid

Your arrow missed my heart

‘En now I feel stupid

For I thought I had arrived

Only to realize

I'd been deceived

Alone I lie in silence

Thinking idle thoughts

That leave me in a trance!

Lonely is a bitch

Dancing to a silent beat

Like a lone wave at the beach!

© September 2012