Heart of innocence

You came along,

I wrote you a poem,

Because I loved you so.

But your love is a blow that kept reigning down.

Until I had nothing left

For you, I bled myself dry

Now all I feel is a painful deprivation

My heart speaks a language I don't understand anymore

Hope, the fickle mistress!

I don't trust myself with you

What happened to not taking prisoners of love… plus all that?

Has it all gone to waste?

The promises we made?

Don't get me wrong,

I think you can do much better than me... 

To start a new day

Now I lie here, scared of tomorrow

The vicious streets filled with emptiness 

My love is on the line

Yet I can't help musing to myself...

What if we wing it

And not let it all go away?

But then again,

I think I'm in love with my sorrow

Trapped in the heart of user

Alone. 

I feel like little pieces dying inside when you keep silent

I'm six feet on the edge of darkness

Tired of a soul filled with echoes… shadows…

If there is one memory I don't wanna lose

That one time you found me in the corner of my darkness

Curled in a ball and letting out gut-wrenching sobs

You kissed me and said I tasted of innocence

Then you showed me how to fight for now

Didn't know 'fighting for now' would come to fighting your crippling spell

Looking on the inside,

There is a gaping hole

When I tried to insulate against you, I got burnt

I hunger to wake up,

Wake up from the heartache of promises long dead

With anyone…

You made me paranoid

I am scared of my own shadow

Yet you still hold onto an important part of me – me!

But, I miss the way the sun broke in your smile

And strays…

Where did my heart go?

Please call now...

I need you…

No I don’t …

Oh, my mind!

I want to go back to being invincible

Now as I let irrational tears fall unbridled

I mourn the loss of something I didn’t have, to begin with

Why didn’t you tell me there was danger?

Why didn’t you warn me?

Your kind eyes, (The irony is not lost on me),

They still haunt my dreams

And it will take an eternity to expunge -

The feel of your arms around me;

Your wonderful fragrance off my brain;

The imprint of your face in my mind;

Your goofy teasing smile…

That lifts my heart of innocence

© AKateemu May, 5, 2014

Heart don’t live here no more

This heart of mine

Has been hardened like the bedrock

At the bottom of the sea

Filled with shadows

And dark figures

Of a love slayed.

Haunted by dreams;

Black and ominous

Once again,

Left in silence

You gave up the fight.

Like a coward

You ran for the hills

Leaving me behind

To hold onto our dreams…

Alone

Scared

Angry

  

I knew we were destined to go wrong

All the signs were there

While I I looked for a connection;

You looked for the great escape

It mattered to you not

How you made my heart race

I cried. I hated. I loved.

I cried again.

And loved again

Even our pent up animosity led to sparks

You saved my heart

I saved you a precious corner

But love don’t live here no more

The reason for time;

Is so everything doesn’t happen at once

We made memories everyday

I play them in my mind, one at a time

I'm betting on time as a healer

Where cupid failed;

And fate cashed in

I will rewrite the script

© AKateemu April, 2014

Endless Tides (A cadence of heartbeats)

[DREW]

Angie,

 You truly inspire the poetry within my soul to violently explode...

The depth of this exposé is unfathomable,

Yet rational in its depth...

If blessings are real,

You're an impressive one for sure...

To the ailment of loneliness, you are certainly the cure...

A pleasant pathogen, gleaming like halogen, lighting the way through the dimmest of days and the darkest of nights...

[ANGIE]

Drew,

You evoke sounds of Sinatra;

Our love tale will feature in the songs of John Legend

You have a way with words -

They are like swords

Gently poking me in all the right places

You make me rhyme ...and joyfully wet

I blush at the pleasurable evil thoughts you evoked when we met And the things my body does to me when you are around

 I'm like a randy teenager. ..

[DREW]

Sight...panoramic...widescreen view of a brand new planet... paradisal in origin,

Birthed from YOU and given to ME in a mutual DREAM we each conceived and believed would happen...Perfection of Love in our direction, the best protection for scarred hearts...

And so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride is where we abide... side by side...glorious voyage on endless tides...

[ANGIE]

Clipped and chipped, my lines short

But let not that fool you about the things I feel

I want you with a fire of a thousand suns

Corny, I know but I am not just horny

I am in love.

Strange how my world seems to start and end with you

I look at you with the moon in my eyes

Feast on your happy soul with a fervour,

Insanely happy and lost

You are ideal because you are real

My Heart chimes in my throat as we embark on the endless tide of our lives

But I'm not scared because you have my heart

I take the plunge into the deep waters

Even as we lie on the seabed with the glowing sea creatures

I'm exhilarated by the peace you embody

I am dark and haunted

And I need a muse to lead me into the light

I am a ferocious Kat who needs a new verse...

Your verse

[DREW]

......MY verse Darling, Ahhhhhh.....

A breath of fresh air I give unto you... the breath was only a test… to see if you could endure the force of my love…

Now I surrender my lung as I only need one… I wish for us to be united in love, so I boldly sacrifice and play the eternal organ…

Your atmosphere falls afresh on my face as I imbibe of your essence… lust for your excellence… and dream of your heavenly blessings…

The raindrops that make you wet are… my tears, as a result of knowing… that when the clock strikes nine… your amazing beauty by design… will leave me standing still…

Your supreme goodness is too good for us… An average man can’t understand… the way your presence hypnotizes my soul…

Although, I refute the force… I resign to impulse… or the simple fact that there is no one… in seven galaxies, who is more amazing and suitable… for me… than you.

Please do not camouflage, be transparent or see through…

My heart, goddess, is yours to bleed through… so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride is where we abide...side by side...glorious voyage on endless tides...

[ANGIE]

I am swimming among the stars because your lack of subtlety drowns me in immense pleasure

I am the flower …slowly opening in your sun tempting the bees on rampage

You are a joy with your words but that can’t compete favourably with the love that dances in your eyes

You make me want to get lost … with you… just us two on the moors of ecstasy

I am a wild card waiting for you like a virgin awaiting her first peaks of pleasure

You make me want to be a better person yet you bring out in me all the untamed urge

You overwhelm me by the depth of your insight

Reaching where no one has been

In the echelons of my darkness …

Bring me to life … I beg!

Take my hand… so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride…

Our glorious ride on endless tides...

© 2014 Drew De’Aloi featuring AKateemu

Feline Ferocity

Yesterday, I saw you-

You looked outright edible

Your masculinity and pheromones overthrew me

I started fidgeting,

Subtly

I had to slap my greedy libido down

As my mind pictured epic climax;

Your testosterone threw my estrogen into a frenzy

I could smell my smouldering horn!

I think I set off the smoke alarm

It should be illegal for any man to be that tempting
I knew I wanted to do bad things to you
When you smiled with the sun in your eyes
I got carried away in imagery:
You have a certain je ne sais quoi
That inspires unladylike swooning
When I ogled
You, with sinewy muscles calling out to my feline ferocity,
I could hear myself rumble
From the dark pit of my stomach
The naughty twinkle in your eyes
Made me purr in dark places
Oi! Goddamit!!

Then you touched my hand,
Subtle sparks bounced off of me
I lit up like an overly decorated Christmas tree of a zealot
I am ashamed of the images that ran in my head
But then again; I was not thinking with my head
Everything was felt;
With a promise to be held
My need; primal
Almost animalistic;
It roared!
Above my hissing hormones
I managed to compose myself
But I knew, I kidded you Not!

'Fuck me princess'
 Corny three little words

That sent my horn on edge
And my wells exploded like no three little words ever were capable
I was unstoppable
Up for the challenge
In the most unladylike manner
I moved
And swelled
And reached
Rode and slowed
And explored
Voracious and insatiable
Like a witch possessed
Tenaciously inspired
Spurred on by your groans of admiration
Awed by my characteristic yet well veiled naughty
I was a slutty princess on the moors
Riding off into the sunset
Reaching for the clouds
Not wanting to break the building tension in the pit of my boiling love seat

Hitting new peaks of pleasure

I was more than happy to handover the reigns.
Your eyes mocking me
And twinkling in merriment -
I matched you move for move
Beat for beat
Harsh breath for another
We moved
We clawed
Tearing at each other like savages
Caring for nothing in the world
Except for the rhythm of our dance
Siamese heartbeats
Bathed in sweat

Groaning like workers on the railroad
We wrestled better than Amalinze the cat,
Tangoed to a sexual cadence in our ears

Reaching for the highs
As we dug lower and deeper
Into the echelons of our fantasies
And this was just one shade of Grey
You caressed my heart with your wand
And together we exploded like the nuclear bomb at Pearl Harbor
Transported into bliss
Shrapnels of our ecstasy
Scattered around us
We were oblivious to the world
Trying to land back on our butts
And when we slowly returned
It was epic

I lie now, in satiety
For hours
The flutter in my stomach
unsettling
I am a quivering mess of emotions
Running from foreboding to excited nerves in nanoseconds
A plethora of all things uncanny
Hot and sensational
I breathe deep and cry out at the memory
And even though I am dying to know if I have the same effect on you
I am afraid to find out
When my horn is calling your name
I can't hold onto me.
Clearly.
The virtual karma sutra in my mind when I envision you in it
Feeds the primal need rooted in a craving to
feel alive if only until the wave of passion has passed

I am growling
Prowling
Purring
Claws out
I want to draw blood
From a passion savagely consumed
Sweating like a pig on roast
I am a ferocious cat
And I want you
Yet again!
To make MEOW!

© AKateemu January 2014

Stalking you with my heart

I lie restless,

Listless…

Dreaming of what could be

Glowing in our glee

Willing our beats to communicate

So I can pass on the unspoken loneliness...

Brooding desires...

And tumultuous aches from within

I am a wreck

Feeble, if you may

These ominous feelings -

Wishing them away makes them deeper.

I want to run from my heart

Put a lot of distance between us

But my legs fail me

I am pathetic

Others would call me a hopeless romantic

Hopeless, I am

And I blame cupid

For pointing my heart in the wrong direction.

When you are with me;

I am whole.

When you say you love me;

I explode.

But then you draw away

Like I am the plague

Leaving no explanation

And a confused heart

Another shot of Tequila,

I can’t stop looking at my phone

Willing it to ring.

I am stalking you

Like a smitten psychopath.

Said I wouldn't call,

But I keep losing all control.

Oh, whoa

How could I be so wrong

While at the same time

Feel this amazingly alive,

Alight with pleasure

When I'm with you?

I am a woman of discriminating taste

Yet I open up to you

Freely, like a lily in the morning.

You know me too well,

It should be illegal

That I hand all the reigns to you -

Surprises the cynic that I am

You said our love was written in the stars  

Yet you pull the plug

Every time I set sail on a few fantasies.

Like the Japanese Yakuza,

You are relentless in torturing my need

Letting me indulge and methodically tearing me apart.

I want to burn the bridges;

Break the connection -

But I am fool

When it comes to you

(It is laughable.... really)

Could be

Because there are too many picturesque memories scattered all over my mind. My body. My soul.

I have the perfect recall

Of the way my heart clenches at your smile;

My body heats at your touch -

My soul walks on the clouds when I’m with you

And the kisses... Those kisses! Oy!

I breathe in the morning dew

As I reflect back on my nightly lustful musings

And I blush

I scowl at my frustration:

I am in love with a dream –

Show me how to fight for now.

I set fire on the already ablaze desire

And I'm consumed.

Lost in paradise of inane bliss

I riot at the thought of not having you

Wistful about the future I will not have

You will be the death of me;

One day!

The death of all things beautiful.

Loving the idea of someone

Is different from loving who they really are:

When I give up on you,

Will be the day I give up on hope,

The only emotion that keeps me alive.

I will turn cupid's arrow on him

And run for the dark

Pick up pieces of my broken soul,

Tender in my emotions,

Mend my spirit -

And fly.

But for now:

I stalk you with my heart­­­­

Guess I’d rather hurt

Than feel nothing at all

© AKateemu December 30, 2013