Heart of everything

There’s a quiet storm

That is you.

And you are playing with my heart

Placing high stakes,

Making me race… and ache…

And maybe I deserve it

Will you keep loving me?

I can't take it if you look away!

I already died the night before

When I hurt you

I want to warm your soul

Only I can't smile

With the ache of disloyalty

It is not just another day;

It is another day of sorrow.

I reneged on your trust -

With my temper;

Walked all over your good natured-ness

With my pride and insecurity.

Only, that’s no excuse at all!

You came along when I needed a savior -

I need you to save me again

From the all-consuming rage I direct at me.

Don't leave me stranded

On the end of a line;

Let's head for the aisle.

When I'm with you,

The whole world can feel my heart simmer.

Like Sade, you are the lovers’ rock

The rock I cling to.

Somewhere in my sadness,

With the walls crowding me,

You lent me your tenderness.

You are a force stronger than nature

That keeps me alive.

I hope with you

Because you are brave for us.

We were chosen by love

Together we survive;

Apart, we leave a wreckage of breathing pieces in our wake.

Under the constellation of the stars;

With the moon standing high in its splendour;

My heart and I were talking …

I asked her about the endless possibilities of you and I;

She gave a lurch…

And she said: “He is your light at dawn…

And the glow in your sunset.”

I couldn’t argue with my Aquarian heart!

Is it a crime,

That I still want you?

And that I want you to want me

With your last breath?

Because I crave your love

To bring me back to heights of delirious pleasure.

And that:

That is the heart of everything.

© AKateemu 2015

Sounds of Silence

I'm not a caterpillar; 

I can't spin a cocoon and wake up a butterfly. 

Neither am I clairvoyant;

I know not what the future is.

I can't be reborn; 

But I'd love to try 

Only because you think I walk on the moon

I'm all emotion - 

Always wearing my heart on my sleeve 

And in my verse

Looking only to love-ever-after.

I know how vulnerable that makes me

But then again, whoever finds how to tame the heart,

Let them write a guide.

Life’s too short to spend time alone 

In another lifetime maybe...

But then again; maybe not.

For now, we live. 

Two people intertwined at the hem of our souls 

Fighting each other 

While embracing the intense surges of affection

Loving each other ….

Among all other bursts of happiness and emotion

I'm impulsive: 

You find yourself objecting to that,

Yet at the same time grudgingly admiring me for it. 

Around me you titter

And I explode 

Driving you bonkers... 

And sometimes giving you the boner!

The blackness has fallen on me

Because you have gone dark

I’m fading away

And my nights are filled with nightmares and tears

Ice-cold rage flowing in me.

In my dreams, I'm running towards the edge 

Screaming my frustration 

I want to feel the sun with you  

I'm losing my mind

Working against the sounds of your silence. 

Trying not to give up;

My heart is frozen 

Living on the edge of psycho

Like a juvenile in her first Cupid encounter 

I'm working against myself, 

Haunted by helplessness

Brought on by the looming loss.

Trying to revive the ill-nourished fire; 

While at the same time drowning in nostalgia and hope …

Lost 

I lie lonely 

And I'm teleported down a dark path

Losing myself in the shadows from which meaningful escape seems unlikely

I don't want to go back down to living on the edge of the darkside

Now that I have experienced the moon

I want you to look at me 

See that I'm good enough.

I can’t measure up to the woman of your dreams; 

I will top that 

Because I'm good enough …  FOR YOU! 

Your heart assures me of that every time you look at me 

And tell me you love me to the sun

Let's take the plunge: 

You and I 

Into the depth of bliss 

Only way we know 

Life is not assured;

Let's not live it fighting 

Or banking on fate…

Waiting on things to work themselves out 

In a world of suicide bombers and missing planes, 

We can only indulge in the loving 

Because, baby we deserve it 

Let’s break the endless sounds of silence

That contin

 ue to linger;

If I can't feel, I'm not me 

If I’m not me; we are not!

© AKateemu 2015

Sensual seduction

 (Because I know no better feeling ...Continued) 

...I live for hope…

For joy and tumultuous hormones…

For the heartache

And pheromones that lead me from my darkness

To your door…

To dawn…

Being held in your arms;

Is the love I live for!

Your moans of pure adoration…

When I hear you surrender to our pleasure;

Your amorous fire,

Fans the flames of my passion

My muse …My ruse… My pleasure at my most lecherous!

I ache.

It is in the marrow.

Malignant buzzing swarm of bees;

Eating away at my estrogen

Weakening my resolve;

Preparing me to explode into rapturous desire

Sensual seduction…

I want to be ravaged by your tender hands  

…trembling hands unsettling…

Flown on the oars of ecstasy;

Until I can’t feel my legs.

Drape me in a cloak of goosebumps

Until I’m a shivering wreck

Torn between surrender and delayed release

Bits and pieces of raw pleasure …

A passion unbridled…

Roots of greed, trembling

With you at the core
Souls starved …
Taking things slow;
So I can get mine before you:

And me… me?

Well… nerves!

Rising to the occasion like a possessed nympho

Moving to the cadence of our heartbeats

As you make your way to the tips of my thirst;

Catering to me like a raging inferno

Delightfully devouring me like fire on a dry savannah

Openin’ the taps of my pleasure…

… the pores of my excitement …

Releasing the pent-up lust

Until I am burning under your scorching hunger…

… and sweating…

…and writhing shamelessly like the prostitutes in the Harlem.

Deep in the stillness;

When you bring me back from throes of pleasure

I hear your savage breath

As my pounding heart holds you…

Just so many fast beats away…

Assuring me that you are mine!

I’m familiar with the slow mischief in your eyes

As we land back to normalcy…

The labored breathing of satiety

Mouthing “I love yous”

My heart stops;

Because I know no better feeling

© AKateemu March, 2015

Because I know no better feeling

 

We are two sides of a coin

Different as night and day;

Where I am argumentative;

You listen.

Where I am headstrong;

You are level-headed.

You hold a torch for me

So I can look up to you.

That you don’t even know that;

Your humility is priceless.

You give me hope

And let my callous soul rest in the depth of your heart.

I am at a loss…

Trying to capture the essence of your appeal

You say you have nothing to offer me -

In giving me everything!

I will honour you with my life;

Because you honoured me first.

And even when distance separates us in miles…

And the timelines clash on the edge of light and darkness…

The heart skips for you every nanosecond.

You are the glow in morning glory

Like to the whiff of the earth kissed by the rain;

I am drawn to you;

Craving you –

Your soul-

From where I draw my strength.

I listen to your heart

As it beats out the staccato rhythm of my name

Watching your chest heave; as you draw out all the consonants and vowels

With a caress of a soft breeze

I believe in enchantment

Now that I met you

No one has any right

To command anyone’s heart to skip, incessantly

Intensely …

Like the rhythmic pounding of a workman’s hammer

Not that I am complaining

Who would?

When floating in the oars of a love so pure

Cloud nine is a great place to be

To get to you,

I will stop at nothing…

With everything I am;

I’m already running…

My world will never be what I expected.

When I met you;

My universe turned onto a new axis

Giving me an angle I couldn’t resist.

With you;

It was never too late

It was what was written in the future.

I will close my eyes to everyone…

… but you

I will lock my heart…

… to any other caress

I will be here to share in every dawn

And every rainy day…

Every anniversary…

The tears…

…and joys of epic proportions

And when dusk saunters in…

I will close my eyes and feel you with my heart.

I love you

Because I know no better feeling

I want to believe that this is for real

You saved me from my fear;

Now I wear my heart on my sleeve

Oh sweet irony!

I live for hope.

I see the pheromones

Leading me from the edge of the darkside

To your door…

To dawn…

…. TO BE CONTINUED

© AKateemu November, 2014

Waking up without you

In my darkness, I knew me

Before you brought me dawn:

Now my heart skips, my innards tumble, my chest constricts, my body flushes with Goosebumps...

I linger in the doorway

Like a depraved beggar to food;

Reaching for the life that you give off.

Longing for you to save me from slinking back…

… Back into the scary echelons of my dark soul where I’m terribly alone.

I’m a wreck of nostalgia…

Dreaming of memories…

Like that long day when we first met

Your eyes twinkled with merriment making me swoon into a heap of teenage giggles.

Your smile – when you taunt me; rendering me numb.

Your hands on me…

Oh the hands… and the veins and the muscles …

Damn! I can't escape the thought of wicked things I long for; with you.

Don’t hate me;

For waking without you

This here bed; it is too cold!

Insomnia brought on by miles of your absence;

So I lie inside myself for hours

And watch my fantasies fly over me…

As the events of the past haunt me…

Slamming into me with the force of an eighteen-wheeler.

Before I come undone; 

I want your amorous throbbing touch

To bid my blood to rush,

From my head into uncanny sweet intimate places

I want to feel numb… and hot… and sweaty… spent… until my limbs are weak and all over the place

And when I come to, I will still see your star from miles so far …

Embracing my soul

So that; even in different timelines…

… My heart will still find refuge

I want to wake up to the croon of your heartbeat on my breast

Your breath whispering a slow sensual rhythmic melody –

Subtle nuances of contentment…

Not the rampant chaos of my waking up…

… Disgruntled alarm clock screaming…

… Vivid nightmares ringing loud from the silent nights

Because when my parts and pieces swim lonely;

In sweet drawn-out depravity brought on by your absence…

… All my fears turn to rage.

My heart can't hold the fear that I’d be lost without you!

Keep breaking the silence…

So that I’m not afraid to open my eyes,

Only to find I was just hypnotized…

… and the joy is no more.

And when dawn arrives;

I will have something to look forward to -

Like a brighter day.

© AKateemu, October 15, 2014

Tempest of emotions

Her

If I didn't know better;
I would follow my heart
Let it lead me into your den of passion
Where you promise an avalanche of love

If I didn't know better;
I would sprawl in your lavish bed
And let you drink me in
Until I'm high on you

Him

                                   So what are you saying?                 That you don't want to be with me?
You have potential lovers lying in waiting...
But baby, you are right here with me

And I can see you tremble
As you drink me in
Savouring the pheromones we give off into the air,
....thick with more than sexual tension

Her 

Stop saying all those sweet things

And reading my heart like it is an open door

Why do I keep drinking you in?

Wasting my time on you?

If I didn't know better,

But dammit I do,

Been down this path before

And back with pieces of my heart breathing in my hands

Him

 

So what are you saying?

When you are the one pulling the strings like the puppet master

I don't like it any more than you do

But baby, don't put all the blame on me

Why do I keep my eye on you?

Running back into your bosom like I'm programmed by a force of nature

Because when you keep drinking me in

Baby, I get lost in you!

Both 

So why do I keep drinking you in?

Wasting my time with you?

If I didn't know better

I'd think I'm in love with you!

Her 

I'm not gonna trade my best days
So you can validate all your fears to me
Because honey, this is love
We all get scared

I'll take time with you
Just to have you stop and start listening to your heart
This love isn't going anywhere
If all we do is rush through the emotions


Him 

If I didn't know better
I would think we are wrong for each other and bolt
Sometimes good intentions don't come across so well
So I wait

You are in so deep
And you don't even know it
Because when I look into your heart
There is so much depth
That's why I stay

Her 

Your smile is all I talk about

When you leave it keeps me aglow

Why do you leave when you can make my world?

Because there is no us... without you

You are the “u” in “us”

Him 

Then why are you always out there looking for something

Aren't you satisfied with me?

Why don't you get off your high heels...

Come level with me?

Her 

Why would you think you are not for me?

That I am not satisfied?

When you set a can of butterflies open in my stomach each time we kiss

Oh, the ache! Deeply rooted! 

Him 

You live in my head

And you can tell this when you look into my eyes

There are no tricks I can try on you,

It's all in my eyes... my eyes when I look upon you

Her 

If you were the earth

And I was the rain

I would pour myself out

Soak you wet

Until I fade into you

Him 

If I were the sun

Like the sun in your eyes

I would rise every morning

To start off your day

And wait til the evening so I can fade into you

Her 

I'm a girl, I can get someone to buy me a drink by wearing five inch heels

But I don’t want a drink for the moment

I want a waterfall that keeps giving

Because this here heart cannot beat without affection

Him 

If I didn't know better

But dammit, I know

I hunger for you;

You fiery and forbidden tempest 

©AKateemu August, 2014