Stuck in Reverse!

I could kiss the stars

For shining so bright!

Was my mantra…

Once upon a time!

Emptiness now sits heavy in my heart.

In this quarantine of misery,

The resonating silence

Makes me want to scream!

You restored me from cynicism

With a smile:

Now I'm hanging between uncertainty...

... en a broken heart

'No measure of time is long enough

To let our hearts tango:

Let's start with forever,'

You used to say!

I made memories with you every day,

In that; our fairytale

Now taking them off the mantle....

E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y!

I have a damn good reason

To worship the Tequila gods:

The thrill of its harsh taste

Cleanses the tears. Respite!

When I look on the inside

I throw words at each other

Hoping they would make sense of my turmoil

But I'm just numb!

My feelings are in plain sight,

You just have to know where to look!

I’m stuck in reverse

Craving for a new verse!

© AK 2012

Line Of Fire

We rekindle our old flame
Like we never lost touch...
En now we can't stop touching...
Damn me for weakness!!

I let you take control
Coz I don't know how to stop!
You tower over my heart
Like the Berlin wall

You shadow my soul
When it tries explore
Can't see past you
Damn my willpower!!

You look at me...
The Walls of self-will
Come crumbling on my feet
Into a heap of softness

Why then...
Do I always feel alone?
Even though I'm with you
I'm lonely...

I've felt this emptiness before
You'd think I'd Have learnt by now...
But all the times I've been broken
I keep coming back...

My resolve is distracted
Ma believing heart
In the line of fire
En I keep getting burned!

(C) 2012

Dark Awakening

When I met you
It was like coming up for fresh air
I was drowning, you saved me
The emptiness I now feel
Gnaws at the soul!

I fell so hard,
I hit rock bottom
Now floating endlessly in abyss
Hoping to come up for air
My heart's barely ticking!

I feel like a human traffic accident
Everyone is slowing down
To view the wreckage!
I sound like a rock goth lyricist:
Cutting edge!

Except I'm the one bleeding!
Sad 'n blue: bitter 'n Cynical...
Need I add Pathetic?
There is no happy memory
They all end in despair!

Around me is silent like a crypt
Darkness is closing in
I'm choking on it's musty tang
Can barely breathe
I'm incarcarated by my own heart!


(C) 2012