Heart of everything

There’s a quiet storm

That is you.

And you are playing with my heart

Placing high stakes,

Making me race… and ache…

And maybe I deserve it

Will you keep loving me?

I can't take it if you look away!

I already died the night before

When I hurt you

I want to warm your soul

Only I can't smile

With the ache of disloyalty

It is not just another day;

It is another day of sorrow.

I reneged on your trust -

With my temper;

Walked all over your good natured-ness

With my pride and insecurity.

Only, that’s no excuse at all!

You came along when I needed a savior -

I need you to save me again

From the all-consuming rage I direct at me.

Don't leave me stranded

On the end of a line;

Let's head for the aisle.

When I'm with you,

The whole world can feel my heart simmer.

Like Sade, you are the lovers’ rock

The rock I cling to.

Somewhere in my sadness,

With the walls crowding me,

You lent me your tenderness.

You are a force stronger than nature

That keeps me alive.

I hope with you

Because you are brave for us.

We were chosen by love

Together we survive;

Apart, we leave a wreckage of breathing pieces in our wake.

Under the constellation of the stars;

With the moon standing high in its splendour;

My heart and I were talking …

I asked her about the endless possibilities of you and I;

She gave a lurch…

And she said: “He is your light at dawn…

And the glow in your sunset.”

I couldn’t argue with my Aquarian heart!

Is it a crime,

That I still want you?

And that I want you to want me

With your last breath?

Because I crave your love

To bring me back to heights of delirious pleasure.

And that:

That is the heart of everything.

© AKateemu 2015

Sounds of Silence

I'm not a caterpillar; 

I can't spin a cocoon and wake up a butterfly. 

Neither am I clairvoyant;

I know not what the future is.

I can't be reborn; 

But I'd love to try 

Only because you think I walk on the moon

I'm all emotion - 

Always wearing my heart on my sleeve 

And in my verse

Looking only to love-ever-after.

I know how vulnerable that makes me

But then again, whoever finds how to tame the heart,

Let them write a guide.

Life’s too short to spend time alone 

In another lifetime maybe...

But then again; maybe not.

For now, we live. 

Two people intertwined at the hem of our souls 

Fighting each other 

While embracing the intense surges of affection

Loving each other ….

Among all other bursts of happiness and emotion

I'm impulsive: 

You find yourself objecting to that,

Yet at the same time grudgingly admiring me for it. 

Around me you titter

And I explode 

Driving you bonkers... 

And sometimes giving you the boner!

The blackness has fallen on me

Because you have gone dark

I’m fading away

And my nights are filled with nightmares and tears

Ice-cold rage flowing in me.

In my dreams, I'm running towards the edge 

Screaming my frustration 

I want to feel the sun with you  

I'm losing my mind

Working against the sounds of your silence. 

Trying not to give up;

My heart is frozen 

Living on the edge of psycho

Like a juvenile in her first Cupid encounter 

I'm working against myself, 

Haunted by helplessness

Brought on by the looming loss.

Trying to revive the ill-nourished fire; 

While at the same time drowning in nostalgia and hope …

Lost 

I lie lonely 

And I'm teleported down a dark path

Losing myself in the shadows from which meaningful escape seems unlikely

I don't want to go back down to living on the edge of the darkside

Now that I have experienced the moon

I want you to look at me 

See that I'm good enough.

I can’t measure up to the woman of your dreams; 

I will top that 

Because I'm good enough …  FOR YOU! 

Your heart assures me of that every time you look at me 

And tell me you love me to the sun

Let's take the plunge: 

You and I 

Into the depth of bliss 

Only way we know 

Life is not assured;

Let's not live it fighting 

Or banking on fate…

Waiting on things to work themselves out 

In a world of suicide bombers and missing planes, 

We can only indulge in the loving 

Because, baby we deserve it 

Let’s break the endless sounds of silence

That contin

 ue to linger;

If I can't feel, I'm not me 

If I’m not me; we are not!

© AKateemu 2015