I'll soon wake up...

Hook line and sinker...
Here goes my little fairytale:
Loving you from a distance -
I'm a woman possessed!
THE END!

The longer version:
I end things between us,
In my head;
With a hope of giving my laden soul respite
Creating climatic (or anti-climatic) scenarios that would win Oscars!
But you keep dangling the carrot-
Something you know I want the most: You!
I only have to see you
And a tempest of emotions breaks forth:
I fall anew!

You never know ‘lonely’
Until your heart's imprisoned!
I should know!
You threw away keys to my freedom
I am incarcerated by my need


I need my best friend
Who believed I could scale heights;
My partner-
Who always said:
We are in this together!
I want my elated heart
That felt weightless in your heart:
My antidote -
For all those uncanny cravings!
I need a lifeline

Because...


I'm love with a dream!
Lost in glorious musings of a happiness so boundless...
But Gloom hovers like an angel of death
The reality:
I'll soon wake up!

© AK Nov 2012

Behind the toothy smile...

Lies a loneliness
So intense:
I can hear it breathe
Painfully...

Why did you have
To love a one like me -
Only to leave such pain
That seared the heart until it is dark?

 When you look at me
I got no rational thought!
It is terrifying-
The power you have over me!

You keep coming onto me
At the same time choosing we are wrong
Loading the broken pieces of my soul
Only to let them slip

I'm shattered
I look like a tsunami wreckage!
The damage I hold within
Is causing quite the stink!

How can I feel this emptiness,
When I epitomize fullness of life?
Look closely; you just might see it -
The sadness that subtly lurks behind the smile

This Love:
It's more killing than hate
Hate is plain simple en clean...
But Cupid: he creates quite the mess!

 © AK November
 

*In the Silence of the night...

You creep up to me

Caressing me like the midnight moon

Taunting my loins...

Until I feel a malignant lymph node

Taking your effortless charm

You chop at my resilience

Exposing a smoldering yearning

That has me in a blood thirsty grip

My brain is short of air

I'm chocking on the frustration...

Oh sweet torture!

*Gasp*

A swift moan escapes

Before I can stop it!

I'm writhing and spasming

In embarrassing ecstasy!   

You find your way

Into thoughts I don’t let anyone in

You occupy my mind

In a really familiar way …

Your burning touch traces my need

Awakening me from the dream

Oy!

I’m desperate to connect!

© AK November 2012

Re-writing My Fantasy

Maybe in another lifetime…

We could have been painted by Da Vinci (*laugh*)

For, DAMN, we were good together:

Had the kind of bizarre happy

That would make ‘The Notebook’

Pale in soppy relevance!

But I’ve learnt the hard way…

Even the picturesque Mona Lisa

Doesn't smile

Go figure!

We spoke in code

Our secret language…

We were that tied at the hip together

But even the firmest of ropes

Gives in to pressure

‘If I give you love…’

Funny how it became our song

When we are no longer together

I didn’t hear much of it then (wink)

But now I can hear it from miles

As it drags with it nostalgia that makes me blush

You haunt me

And I have no power to fight you…

Don’t think I really want to

It is a constantly exhausting losing battle

So I’m re-writing my fantasy

It will make Cinderella story

Pale in comparison

Because in this my tale,

I will mould my fate:

I will shape it artistically,

To fit the core of each crevasse in my soul

I’ll fill each void

That continues to be cut off air

Every time I see you!

I’ll tether my heart

Barring it from roving

Lest it catches feelings!

I'll structure this fantasy

On the blueprint of ma needs!

© October 2012

INDIAN DELIGHTS!

Tickle Your Spice Taste Buds

By Angela Kateemu

RECIPE: Chicken Chetinnad served with Cheese Naan

CHEF: Rana

PLACE: Khyber Pass Indian Authentic Restaurant @ Speke Hotel

There is something about spiced food that grows on you and gets you craving when you take long without tasting it. Indian delicacies are colourful and rich in spices. They could be the much needed break to your monotonous menu.  Chef Rana gives you a simple recipe to follow, to make these dishes in the comfort of your home.

Chicken Chetinnad

This chicken dish is thick; it almost is a full meal on its own.

You can serve it with Naan or vegetable rice

Ingredients

To make Chicken Tikka

* Boneless chicken

* Fenugreek

* Turmeric powder

* Ginger Garlic paste

* Salt

Method

* Clean the chicken, remove the skin and cut into small pieces

* In a bowl, mix the above spices (Fenugreek, Turmeric, Ginger Garlic paste) with chicken. Add salt to taste.

* Leave them to stand for about 15-20 to let the spices sink in the chicken

* Shove the marinated chicken on skewers and place in a hot Tandoori/oven

* After 10-15 minutes, take the Chicken Tikka out of the Tandoori

Making Chicken Chetinnad

Ingredients

* Half-done chicken Tikka

* Vegetable Oil

* Curry leaves

* Mustard seed

* Chopped garlic

* Chopped fresh chilli

* Chopped onions and tomatoes

* Salt

* Coriander powder

* Coconut powder

* Water

* Mutton gravy – (onion and tomato gravy for non-vegetarian dishes)

* Fresh coriander leaves (Garnish)

Method

* Heat a little oil on a pan

* Add the mustard seeds and let them cook before adding curry leaves

* Add chopped garlic followed by Chopped chill, onions and tomatoes. Stir until it cooks.

* Add salt to taste

* Put coconut powder followed by the half done chicken Tikka

* Stir everything together before adding water.

* Add yoghurt and cashew nut paste to taste!

* Finally add mutton gravy to make the sauce thick.

* Stir and leave on fire for a few minutes

* When it is ready, add chopped fresh coriander leaves.

* Serve on a flat tower and garnish with fresh tomatoes, fresh coriander leaves, coconut powder.

* Accompany this dish with Cheese Naan

Cheese Naan

Ingredients

* Baking flour

* Milk

* Water

* Eggs

* Sugar

* Salt

* Baking oil

* Grated Cottage cheese

Method

* In a bowl, pour flour, milk, eggs, a little salt (to taste), sugar, and water

* Mix everything together to make dough

* Add a little oil to make the dough supple

* When the dough is well mixed; divide in to make small balls of dough

* Let the dough balls rest for about 15 minutes

* Take a ball of dough at a time and flatten them

* Roll grated cheese and stuff into the dough

* Enclose the cheese with in the dough, roll into a ball

* Then flatten it with hands and stick it on the walls of a hot Tandoori

* Remove the ready Naan after 2 minutes

* Spread a little butter on the top side and cut into servable portions

* Serve hot

Cheese Naan

Chef Rana stuffs cheese into the dough to make Cheese Naan

Chicken Chetinnad served on a flat tower

Chicken Chetinnad

Some of the ingredients used to make Chicken Chetinnad

CONTINENTAL

Ostentatious Mouth Watering Dishes!

By Angela Kateemu

RECIPE: Seafood Platter, Chef Salad!

CHEF: Haidar

PLACE: Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo

There is nothing that works a big appetite like eating in an ostentatious lakeside resort with a 5-star chef! I had the pleasure, not only of dining, but also of joining Chef Haidar as he prepared mouth watering, less intricate, Continental dishes.

SEAFOOD PLATTER

(Serve with Mashed potatoes and Dill Caper Sauce)

Many people make faces at the thought of Seafood. Trust me; you will find them rather tasty, they’ll grow on you. Breakaway from your monotonous Fish Stew and explore a wave of other aquatic goodies!

Ingredients

* Nile Perch

* Salmon

* Squids

* Prawns

Marinade

* Black pepper

* Fresh Parsley

* Garlic, chopped

* Lime juice

* Salt

Preparation

* Marinate the different Seafoods with black pepper powder, chopped parsley, garlic, and lime juice

* Add a little salt to taste  and leave the marinade to soak in the different Seafoods for about an hour

* Spread a little oil on the flat hot grill

* Take the marinated pieces to the grill

* Grill each side for around 2 minutes until the pieces turn brown

* Take off the grill, when ready

Making Mashed Potatoes

* Boil the Irish potatoes in water and salt, until ready

* Mash the ready Irish Potatoes

* Put a little butter on a pan, over fire

* Add the mashed potatoes and mix

* Take off the fire

Making Dill Caper Sauce

Dill herbs go well with all types of Seafood

* Heat Cream in a pan

* Add fresh Dill herbs to cream

* Add Caper seeds (available in supermarkets) and stir

Serving

* Arrange the Grilled seafood around a serving of mashed potatoes

* Spread with Dill Caper Sauce

* Garnish with steamed, buttered Broccoli, Cauliflower and carrots

* Finish with Balcamic (Dark brown liquid)

CHEF SALAD

Ingredients

* Canned Tuna fish

* Mixed Veggies (Broccoli, Lettuce, Tomatoes

* Lemon

* Cous Cous (Moroccan Traditional Dish -available in Supermarkets)

* Dressing (mix Vinegar, English Mustard and olive oil)

Making Cous Cous

* Steam Cous Cous in Chicken Stock for five minutes

* Add chopped bell peppers (green, yellow, red)

* Let it cool (because you are going to use it as a salad!)

Chef Haidar of Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo grills the sea food

Grill the pieces until they brown

Marinated Seafood ready to be grilled

Marinated Seafood ready to be grilled

Chef Haidar of Common Wealth Resort, Munyonyo makes his special salad

Chef Salad with Cous Cous 

Ingredients for the salad

Preparation of Chef Salad

* Mix the veggies together with Tuna and a little dressing

* On a platter, put a serving of Cous Cous

* Surround it with the Mixed Salad

* Garnish with fresh coriander and sprinkle a little Mango Coulie (Yellow)

This is me, letting go!

I saw you yesterday,
And all those things

I fell in love with
Came rushing at me -
With a force so hard,

The air in my lungs

Didn't stand a chance!

My stomach was hit

With an invisible dart,
Making me weak,
My chest palpitated;
My heart broke into a song
Of desire,
Of raw unfulfilled want...

Stop! This unbearable heat...

My heart plays Moonlight Sonata

In rush dirty rapper's beat


Your smile played before my eyes
The same warm smile

That had my stomach in a knot

On our first date!
It tortured my need

Made me want

The child from your seed…
When you looked gently at me

Behind your thin-rimmed glasses;

Reminding of nightly prayers

And yoga classes...

The anger,
Seemed to dissipate
I broke into a sweat
Breaking eye contact

Before I could jump

Your bones
The familiar mischief in your laugh;

Your voice with sweet overtones
It was like homecoming!

My voice went yodeling
I pretended not to feel

The things you made me feel
I wanted so bad to break my vow
And ravish you without a shame!

And then, perhaps later,

Dive into self-blame...

While my guards were silently

Falling down,

Causing old dust of hope to fly like Sahara simoom
I raised again my eyes up at you:
My heart almost stopped!
My nearness tortured you,
Just as much as you did me!
I watched you avoid eye-contact

I see...
Afraid it would mirror my lust?
Trying so hard

Not to relive the familiarity

That we'll forever share!
And as I watched you look away,

I swear
I could sense I was alive

In your mind, in your heart...

And as I stared
Your groin took on  a life of its own

Ahha!!! I see your self-control

Is blown away with my moves...

I am still your Muse!

The familiar tang of your body scent wafted to me,

Awakening all the senses...

Queuing them up until they were guitar-string taut!

A bead of sweat formed on my brow 

With every rise of my chest!

I felt Claustrophobia slowly creeping up on me-

My breathing came out in laboured shafts!

My heart, hammered against the rib cage,

Threatening to burst forth!

I felt your every shift,
Responded to your every nervous twinge

It hit me back, my silly “revenge”:
I shifted endlessly,
Because against my willpower;
A hot flush I hopelessly fought

Was spreading all over me,

Like in menopause,
Awakening in me a raw want;
Only you could bring into life!
It rose like a tumor, so malignant yet subtle
My body twitched, raked by sweet spasms…

Those silent spasms, that strive

But unable to hold

Imminent, loud orgasms...

I looked over at you
Hoping you

Wouldn't see my discomfort
You didn't miss the goosebumps
They kissed my skin
With an obsession of an amorous lover…
It made you antsy!
The tension of our closeness was so thick,
I could cut through it!
I held ground
I couldn't trust my legs,
To bolt me out of the room!
Not sure what to do with these feelings
That were continuously pouring off of me,

Zooming past my thighs…

My throat, dry,
My mouth aching to be devoured

Damn!

 I did wet my lips with my tongue!

My wound has been scoured...

I looked on you –
Trying hard not to stare as you casually paced the room,
Convincingly looking like you were calm!
Inquiring about nothing I'd said!
With my short skirt riding high
You couldn't concentrate

I understood!
Against myself: I understood!
Forgave you
For giving up on us-
The wreckage you inflicted

On my heart!
It was the same deal of heartache
You carried, stoically
Watching you as you looked upon me;
Almost crushing under the resolve to keep buried
The overwhelming love you have for me.
In accepting the reality of the walls between us;
I need a new fantasy...
NOT with you!
I'm chucking my deuces:

I'm letting YOU go

© AK 2013 

Lonely is A Beat-CH!

I stare at blank hope

Reminiscing about times gone...

When every minute was dope

My soul's restless

Hoping to wake up-

Only it has been sleepless!

Cold nights are calling

Reaching out with their chilling touch

I recoil and keep falling

Rescue me I beg

For I fear the dark

Bottled I am, in a keg

Away from the light

I suffocate

Praying for a life that is lite

Exit my mind knave

For my body aches

Buoying up only to cave

Oh Cupid

Your arrow missed my heart

‘En now I feel stupid

For I thought I had arrived

Only to realize

I'd been deceived

Alone I lie in silence

Thinking idle thoughts

That leave me in a trance!

Lonely is a bitch

Dancing to a silent beat

Like a lone wave at the beach!

© September 2012

I'M SO-RAW!

I don't know who you are;

You waltz in with the cocky Jagger

Thrusting your charm my way

Panting with a thirst so intense;

You got me all wiled up!

The grin you direct my way,

Says you have me exactly where you want me: 

Under your spell!

My innards are swooning all over you

Bless the heavens you can't see

What you do to me!

I've no expectations of you-

I'm no idiot!

But when you came into the room

The air went out!

I'm aware of your masculinity

It is driving me insane!

My lower stomach is taut...

Before the night is through;

I wanna do bad things with you!

This hunger within

Has been on a slumber, long!

I want to make mad love to you;

With unbridled finality...

Going beyond the cliché 'toe-curling',

Into the unimaginable satiety

I blush at this raw want

The animal growl from the inside:

I hear its rumbling ripple up my spine

Into my hardened nipples

Oh the embarrassment- I could die of shame!

Thank you for making me look like a fool -

But then again,

You got virile testosterone!

And with all this estrogen in play,

I don't need any help looking like a fool!

I'm nerves!

© AK August 2012