Haunted to be wanted (Heartbeat and I)

What day is it?
Is it yesterday, yet?
I'm losing so much time, I think. 
My clock seems to have stopped.

Another cold day,
In the October moonlight 
I'm walking, again, on the edge of the dark-side 
I feel no heartbeat
Nothing;
Nothing to reassure me 
That I'm not ‘Gone and forgotten’ 

My heart skips for you
Even as our world spins out of control
I look at us, 
Breathing all in, with nostalgia:
Everything comes alive
And I break into tears
Silent unshed tears: 
I'm so broken
Stranded at the altar of our dreams
With a gleam of love in my eyes
Lost.

Lost and insecure,
You found me on the road to cynicism 
Under your spell; 
I fell so hard
Together, we chained our hearts
In a bizarre union -
Relentlessly wanting each other
Imperfect people;
We were refined by love 

You and me;
Bad for each other from the start
No one can understand; 
No one ever understood
But that never stopped us
We flirted with risk…  
…dared fate
Did the unthinkable...
Reached for bliss
Unhinged -
We tumbled endlessly 
Living on the edge of naughty
Living for the day.
Together, we were insatiable,
Laughed so hard at the world
Because we could.


Gazing at the skies;
Serene and beautiful,
I remember all those days we spent
The memory of our love, never lost 
It was enough
Bet it all down with my life.
Even as I hang in balance;
You loom in my heart -
The only glow in the embers

The glory of the sun comes to a standstill
As the sun sets in the horizon 
Reminding me of the times by the lake  
I miss your heartbeat
On my breast; 
Sometimes, 
I feel so disconnected
Somehow,
I want to come play with the thunder
No fun in sitting back and waiting for a wonder

Under cloud cover, 
Wrapped in the deep cloak of night
I listen to sad love songs
Longing, craving, crying… 
(Sometimes in that particular order)
I can’t believe how much my pulse seems to roar
My arms ache;
To embrace and comfort you where you lie
I reach out;
To your heart and hold your love…

Take my hand; 
I wanna contact cupid 
Ask him to land us back on our feet
Where our hearts can beat in unison
Where we can tumble into clouds of passion; 
Break into day in suffocating embrace
I might die -
When I stop to breathe
Alone, and lost
All I feel is the cruel wanting 
Haunted to be wanted by you

AK © October 21, 2013