Hearts and thorns

The tightening in my chest,

I am suffocating.

Dams of tears threaten to burst.

I've been believing,

In something so distant –

You brought me back to life –

For a while.

Now I'm broken.

Alone...

I'm reeling.

Somehow I remain upright.

My heart lurches to a halt,

My joy unfurls –

Stretches lazily,

Bored.

I’m transported into bliss

Then left hanging

Alone...

My world stands still,

Tilts,

And spins on a new axis.

I am billowing in the wind,

Flying off to the unknown.

I’m a kaleidoscope of moods

Feelings so profound...

They tear to the core

And you give no respite...

Kiss me.

Stop me from drowning.

Will I never break these chains;

That our souls bind?

Sultry voices call out to me

Setting me ablaze with want –

Pulling me from my darkness....

My haunted dreams

Lonely,

I lie, in the dark –

Dreamless;

Silent –

For a while.

Then my nightmares

Crawl up to me;

Foreboding.

So many blinding walls between us

I don’t want to feel for you

But my happiness-paths

All lead to you.

Oh darkness,

My muse!

Drenched in pain, again

I court my loneliness

I wallow in sad love songs,

Letting their bitter-sweet nuances

Lull me to sleep.

Wake me up,

When the year is gone

I need a little modesty to bow out

But what modesty –

At a quarter past one?

When I’m a little drunk (Yes! A little)

And I need you?

This hangover will not pass,

Soon

I’m a mess.

Hearts and roses;

I want.

Hearts and thorns;

I’m dealt.

My body is on fire,

But I will not grieve –

Yet.

There is nothing real love can’t undo –

I think.

And unless we lie in silence,

The blinding walls will melt.  

© Akateemu December, 2013