Because I know no better feeling

 

We are two sides of a coin

Different as night and day;

Where I am argumentative;

You listen.

Where I am headstrong;

You are level-headed.

You hold a torch for me

So I can look up to you.

That you don’t even know that;

Your humility is priceless.

You give me hope

And let my callous soul rest in the depth of your heart.

I am at a loss…

Trying to capture the essence of your appeal

You say you have nothing to offer me -

In giving me everything!

I will honour you with my life;

Because you honoured me first.

And even when distance separates us in miles…

And the timelines clash on the edge of light and darkness…

The heart skips for you every nanosecond.

You are the glow in morning glory

Like to the whiff of the earth kissed by the rain;

I am drawn to you;

Craving you –

Your soul-

From where I draw my strength.

I listen to your heart

As it beats out the staccato rhythm of my name

Watching your chest heave; as you draw out all the consonants and vowels

With a caress of a soft breeze

I believe in enchantment

Now that I met you

No one has any right

To command anyone’s heart to skip, incessantly

Intensely …

Like the rhythmic pounding of a workman’s hammer

Not that I am complaining

Who would?

When floating in the oars of a love so pure

Cloud nine is a great place to be

To get to you,

I will stop at nothing…

With everything I am;

I’m already running…

My world will never be what I expected.

When I met you;

My universe turned onto a new axis

Giving me an angle I couldn’t resist.

With you;

It was never too late

It was what was written in the future.

I will close my eyes to everyone…

… but you

I will lock my heart…

… to any other caress

I will be here to share in every dawn

And every rainy day…

Every anniversary…

The tears…

…and joys of epic proportions

And when dusk saunters in…

I will close my eyes and feel you with my heart.

I love you

Because I know no better feeling

I want to believe that this is for real

You saved me from my fear;

Now I wear my heart on my sleeve

Oh sweet irony!

I live for hope.

I see the pheromones

Leading me from the edge of the darkside

To your door…

To dawn…

…. TO BE CONTINUED

© AKateemu November, 2014

Waking up without you

In my darkness, I knew me

Before you brought me dawn:

Now my heart skips, my innards tumble, my chest constricts, my body flushes with Goosebumps...

I linger in the doorway

Like a depraved beggar to food;

Reaching for the life that you give off.

Longing for you to save me from slinking back…

… Back into the scary echelons of my dark soul where I’m terribly alone.

I’m a wreck of nostalgia…

Dreaming of memories…

Like that long day when we first met

Your eyes twinkled with merriment making me swoon into a heap of teenage giggles.

Your smile – when you taunt me; rendering me numb.

Your hands on me…

Oh the hands… and the veins and the muscles …

Damn! I can't escape the thought of wicked things I long for; with you.

Don’t hate me;

For waking without you

This here bed; it is too cold!

Insomnia brought on by miles of your absence;

So I lie inside myself for hours

And watch my fantasies fly over me…

As the events of the past haunt me…

Slamming into me with the force of an eighteen-wheeler.

Before I come undone; 

I want your amorous throbbing touch

To bid my blood to rush,

From my head into uncanny sweet intimate places

I want to feel numb… and hot… and sweaty… spent… until my limbs are weak and all over the place

And when I come to, I will still see your star from miles so far …

Embracing my soul

So that; even in different timelines…

… My heart will still find refuge

I want to wake up to the croon of your heartbeat on my breast

Your breath whispering a slow sensual rhythmic melody –

Subtle nuances of contentment…

Not the rampant chaos of my waking up…

… Disgruntled alarm clock screaming…

… Vivid nightmares ringing loud from the silent nights

Because when my parts and pieces swim lonely;

In sweet drawn-out depravity brought on by your absence…

… All my fears turn to rage.

My heart can't hold the fear that I’d be lost without you!

Keep breaking the silence…

So that I’m not afraid to open my eyes,

Only to find I was just hypnotized…

… and the joy is no more.

And when dawn arrives;

I will have something to look forward to -

Like a brighter day.

© AKateemu, October 15, 2014

Tempest of emotions

Her

If I didn't know better;
I would follow my heart
Let it lead me into your den of passion
Where you promise an avalanche of love

If I didn't know better;
I would sprawl in your lavish bed
And let you drink me in
Until I'm high on you

Him

                                   So what are you saying?                 That you don't want to be with me?
You have potential lovers lying in waiting...
But baby, you are right here with me

And I can see you tremble
As you drink me in
Savouring the pheromones we give off into the air,
....thick with more than sexual tension

Her 

Stop saying all those sweet things

And reading my heart like it is an open door

Why do I keep drinking you in?

Wasting my time on you?

If I didn't know better,

But dammit I do,

Been down this path before

And back with pieces of my heart breathing in my hands

Him

 

So what are you saying?

When you are the one pulling the strings like the puppet master

I don't like it any more than you do

But baby, don't put all the blame on me

Why do I keep my eye on you?

Running back into your bosom like I'm programmed by a force of nature

Because when you keep drinking me in

Baby, I get lost in you!

Both 

So why do I keep drinking you in?

Wasting my time with you?

If I didn't know better

I'd think I'm in love with you!

Her 

I'm not gonna trade my best days
So you can validate all your fears to me
Because honey, this is love
We all get scared

I'll take time with you
Just to have you stop and start listening to your heart
This love isn't going anywhere
If all we do is rush through the emotions


Him 

If I didn't know better
I would think we are wrong for each other and bolt
Sometimes good intentions don't come across so well
So I wait

You are in so deep
And you don't even know it
Because when I look into your heart
There is so much depth
That's why I stay

Her 

Your smile is all I talk about

When you leave it keeps me aglow

Why do you leave when you can make my world?

Because there is no us... without you

You are the “u” in “us”

Him 

Then why are you always out there looking for something

Aren't you satisfied with me?

Why don't you get off your high heels...

Come level with me?

Her 

Why would you think you are not for me?

That I am not satisfied?

When you set a can of butterflies open in my stomach each time we kiss

Oh, the ache! Deeply rooted! 

Him 

You live in my head

And you can tell this when you look into my eyes

There are no tricks I can try on you,

It's all in my eyes... my eyes when I look upon you

Her 

If you were the earth

And I was the rain

I would pour myself out

Soak you wet

Until I fade into you

Him 

If I were the sun

Like the sun in your eyes

I would rise every morning

To start off your day

And wait til the evening so I can fade into you

Her 

I'm a girl, I can get someone to buy me a drink by wearing five inch heels

But I don’t want a drink for the moment

I want a waterfall that keeps giving

Because this here heart cannot beat without affection

Him 

If I didn't know better

But dammit, I know

I hunger for you;

You fiery and forbidden tempest 

©AKateemu August, 2014

Spellbound (Escapism can be Smart)

My mouth flings open

And I can't locate my brain

and ..... Er... voice

With my heart almost chocking me;

That dark place in the pit of my stomach smiles

with seductive mischief laced with optimism

A delicious undercurrent runs through me, lighting me up

Oh nerves!

I feel giddy and I tingle all over

Watching your every move,

Fascinated!

Your masculinity; it is intoxicating:

I inhale deeply.

You have a beautiful mouth:

I want it on me.

I am paralysed with a strange yet so familiar need;

I've stoppped breathing altogether!

Adrenaline has spiked in response to your close proximity

It is heady.

Desire:

Thick hot pools of it in my belly.

Completely captivated:

I want you.

Simple fact.

I want you badly.

Bless my loins, oh sweet heavens!

They are on fire!

Surely there is a saint watching over damsels unraveled, no?

I sweat profusely from trying to remain calm

How do virgins do it?

Keep calm?

But then again, I don't want to be them

This feeling might be ephemeral

Fleeting. Temporary. Passing.

But I can touch it.

I blame this weather -

Cold and cuddle-inspiring!

And I blame you;

For being so dreamy

I can barely... Just barely, help myself

I am having mind kama-sutra

Playing it all out; in graphic detail

I'm appalled and excited by how real it feels

Thank God for the hidden thoughts!

And you sit there...

Calm as they come

Looking at me and not knowing things I'm doing to you

I chuckle with mischief

Escapism can be smart!

Otherwise I would be reverse prostrate on your feet

Like a prostitute in the Harlem

Willing you to ravish me

Until I'm dizzy with pleasure

Spellbound!

(C) AKateemu, May 2014

Heart of innocence

You came along,

I wrote you a poem,

Because I loved you so.

But your love is a blow that kept reigning down.

Until I had nothing left

For you, I bled myself dry

Now all I feel is a painful deprivation

My heart speaks a language I don't understand anymore

Hope, the fickle mistress!

I don't trust myself with you

What happened to not taking prisoners of love… plus all that?

Has it all gone to waste?

The promises we made?

Don't get me wrong,

I think you can do much better than me... 

To start a new day

Now I lie here, scared of tomorrow

The vicious streets filled with emptiness 

My love is on the line

Yet I can't help musing to myself...

What if we wing it

And not let it all go away?

But then again,

I think I'm in love with my sorrow

Trapped in the heart of user

Alone. 

I feel like little pieces dying inside when you keep silent

I'm six feet on the edge of darkness

Tired of a soul filled with echoes… shadows…

If there is one memory I don't wanna lose

That one time you found me in the corner of my darkness

Curled in a ball and letting out gut-wrenching sobs

You kissed me and said I tasted of innocence

Then you showed me how to fight for now

Didn't know 'fighting for now' would come to fighting your crippling spell

Looking on the inside,

There is a gaping hole

When I tried to insulate against you, I got burnt

I hunger to wake up,

Wake up from the heartache of promises long dead

With anyone…

You made me paranoid

I am scared of my own shadow

Yet you still hold onto an important part of me – me!

But, I miss the way the sun broke in your smile

And strays…

Where did my heart go?

Please call now...

I need you…

No I don’t …

Oh, my mind!

I want to go back to being invincible

Now as I let irrational tears fall unbridled

I mourn the loss of something I didn’t have, to begin with

Why didn’t you tell me there was danger?

Why didn’t you warn me?

Your kind eyes, (The irony is not lost on me),

They still haunt my dreams

And it will take an eternity to expunge -

The feel of your arms around me;

Your wonderful fragrance off my brain;

The imprint of your face in my mind;

Your goofy teasing smile…

That lifts my heart of innocence

© AKateemu May, 5, 2014

Heart don’t live here no more

This heart of mine

Has been hardened like the bedrock

At the bottom of the sea

Filled with shadows

And dark figures

Of a love slayed.

Haunted by dreams;

Black and ominous

Once again,

Left in silence

You gave up the fight.

Like a coward

You ran for the hills

Leaving me behind

To hold onto our dreams…

Alone

Scared

Angry

  

I knew we were destined to go wrong

All the signs were there

While I I looked for a connection;

You looked for the great escape

It mattered to you not

How you made my heart race

I cried. I hated. I loved.

I cried again.

And loved again

Even our pent up animosity led to sparks

You saved my heart

I saved you a precious corner

But love don’t live here no more

The reason for time;

Is so everything doesn’t happen at once

We made memories everyday

I play them in my mind, one at a time

I'm betting on time as a healer

Where cupid failed;

And fate cashed in

I will rewrite the script

© AKateemu April, 2014

Endless Tides (A cadence of heartbeats)

[DREW]

Angie,

 You truly inspire the poetry within my soul to violently explode...

The depth of this exposé is unfathomable,

Yet rational in its depth...

If blessings are real,

You're an impressive one for sure...

To the ailment of loneliness, you are certainly the cure...

A pleasant pathogen, gleaming like halogen, lighting the way through the dimmest of days and the darkest of nights...

[ANGIE]

Drew,

You evoke sounds of Sinatra;

Our love tale will feature in the songs of John Legend

You have a way with words -

They are like swords

Gently poking me in all the right places

You make me rhyme ...and joyfully wet

I blush at the pleasurable evil thoughts you evoked when we met And the things my body does to me when you are around

 I'm like a randy teenager. ..

[DREW]

Sight...panoramic...widescreen view of a brand new planet... paradisal in origin,

Birthed from YOU and given to ME in a mutual DREAM we each conceived and believed would happen...Perfection of Love in our direction, the best protection for scarred hearts...

And so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride is where we abide... side by side...glorious voyage on endless tides...

[ANGIE]

Clipped and chipped, my lines short

But let not that fool you about the things I feel

I want you with a fire of a thousand suns

Corny, I know but I am not just horny

I am in love.

Strange how my world seems to start and end with you

I look at you with the moon in my eyes

Feast on your happy soul with a fervour,

Insanely happy and lost

You are ideal because you are real

My Heart chimes in my throat as we embark on the endless tide of our lives

But I'm not scared because you have my heart

I take the plunge into the deep waters

Even as we lie on the seabed with the glowing sea creatures

I'm exhilarated by the peace you embody

I am dark and haunted

And I need a muse to lead me into the light

I am a ferocious Kat who needs a new verse...

Your verse

[DREW]

......MY verse Darling, Ahhhhhh.....

A breath of fresh air I give unto you... the breath was only a test… to see if you could endure the force of my love…

Now I surrender my lung as I only need one… I wish for us to be united in love, so I boldly sacrifice and play the eternal organ…

Your atmosphere falls afresh on my face as I imbibe of your essence… lust for your excellence… and dream of your heavenly blessings…

The raindrops that make you wet are… my tears, as a result of knowing… that when the clock strikes nine… your amazing beauty by design… will leave me standing still…

Your supreme goodness is too good for us… An average man can’t understand… the way your presence hypnotizes my soul…

Although, I refute the force… I resign to impulse… or the simple fact that there is no one… in seven galaxies, who is more amazing and suitable… for me… than you.

Please do not camouflage, be transparent or see through…

My heart, goddess, is yours to bleed through… so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride is where we abide...side by side...glorious voyage on endless tides...

[ANGIE]

I am swimming among the stars because your lack of subtlety drowns me in immense pleasure

I am the flower …slowly opening in your sun tempting the bees on rampage

You are a joy with your words but that can’t compete favourably with the love that dances in your eyes

You make me want to get lost … with you… just us two on the moors of ecstasy

I am a wild card waiting for you like a virgin awaiting her first peaks of pleasure

You make me want to be a better person yet you bring out in me all the untamed urge

You overwhelm me by the depth of your insight

Reaching where no one has been

In the echelons of my darkness …

Bring me to life … I beg!

Take my hand… so we embark on a journey that has no destination... for there is no ending, no finale pending, lending ourselves to the joys of the ride…

Our glorious ride on endless tides...

© 2014 Drew De’Aloi featuring AKateemu