You
came along,
I wrote you a poem,
Because I loved you so.
But your love is a blow that kept reigning down.
Until I had nothing left
For you, I bled myself dry
Now all I feel is a painful deprivation
My heart speaks a language I don't understand
anymore
Hope, the fickle mistress!
I don't trust myself with you
What happened to not taking prisoners of love… plus
all that?
Has it all gone to waste?
The promises we made?
Don't get me wrong,
I think you can do much better than me...
To start a new day
Now I lie here, scared of tomorrow
The vicious streets filled with emptiness
My love is on the line
Yet I can't help musing to myself...
What if we wing it
And not let it all go away?
But then again,
I think I'm in love with my sorrow
Trapped in the heart of user
Alone.
I feel like little pieces dying inside when you
keep silent
I'm six feet on the edge of darkness
Tired of a soul filled with echoes… shadows…
If there is one memory I don't wanna lose
That one time you found me in the corner of my
darkness
Curled in a ball and letting out gut-wrenching
sobs
You kissed me and said I tasted of innocence
Then you showed me how to fight for now
Didn't know 'fighting for now' would come to
fighting your crippling spell
Looking on the inside,
There is a gaping hole
When I tried to insulate against you, I got
burnt
I
hunger to wake up,
Wake
up from the heartache of promises long dead
With
anyone…
You
made me paranoid
I am
scared of my own shadow
Yet
you still hold onto an important part of me – me!
But, I
miss the way the sun broke in your smile
And strays…
Where
did my heart go?
Please
call now...
I
need you…
No I
don’t …
Oh,
my mind!
I
want to go back to being invincible
Now
as I let irrational tears fall unbridled
I mourn
the loss of something I didn’t have, to begin with
Why
didn’t you tell me there was danger?
Why
didn’t you warn me?
Your
kind eyes, (The irony is not lost on me),
They
still haunt my dreams
And
it will take an eternity to expunge -
The
feel of your arms around me;
Your
wonderful fragrance off my brain;
The
imprint of your face in my mind;
Your
goofy teasing smile…
That
lifts my heart of innocence
©
AKateemu May, 5, 2014
